Well, I like new beginnings so that wasn’t a challenge for me, but to digest the emotional turmoil that all this caused was definitely not easy! Years flew by and before I knew it I found myself in the so called ‘middle age’ and my perspectives and plans changed; the idea of having children was not so appealing any more.

I started looking at life a little closer and ask myself questions like “What am I here to do?”, “Is there more to life than this?”, “I want more, but what exactly?” and others, but still along those lines.
Having lived in a different country has broadened my horizons and views about life and happiness. Having had more than one relationship also gave me a chance to stretch myself beyond my little ‘garden’ and look further afield.

I came to realise that we are all conditioned by so many things in life that actually to know who we are is not that easy, in fact it can be quite tricky.

Coming back to myself

Nevertheless I kept asking myself who I am and that helped me to eventually have a ‘eureka’ moment when I realised that my purpose is to educate women about their body and menstrual cycle to make it their best friend. It didn’t happen overnight though, it was the result of attending a workshop about menstruation and then allowing all the information to sink in and being open to what was there for me to be discovered.
Understanding more about my body and menstruation really helped me to put things into perspective and understand why I was feeling in certain ways at certain times of the month.

I embarked on my journey of self-discovery and menstrual awareness and that has changed me totally.
I started feeling different and empowered, rather than a victim of my body and nature. My life became an adventure that wasn’t simply an external and geographical journey, but a deeper and intimate voyage into myself.

It is actually down to me to decide what I want to bring into my life and I can co-create my life with the bigger forces out there for which we all have different names. I call them Nature or the Universe. The most important thing of all was realising that for a woman having children is optional, but giving birth to herself is a must !

Women’s purpose

As women we need to understand what our vocation is and what is important to us, otherwise we will never feel happy and fulfilled. Having children must be a wonderful experience, very fulfilling and all encompassing, but it is paramount to remember that we are born first as women with a purpose, not mothers!

If we don’t fulfil this duty towards ourselves first, being a mother will be a surrogate and a substitute for our self-actualisation and we will realise sooner or later that we are missing something.

Motherhood is one of the most important duty/vocation in a woman’s life, but if we don’t realise that we exist first as women, we won’t be able to transmit our legacy to our children or to the next generation at large.

When I understood this, I felt very different and the question of “I am not a mother, am I failure?” disappeared from my world and I achieved piece of mind.

I now know that by fulfilling my life purpose as a female cycle consultant and by helping women to feel empowered by their female cycle, I can leave my mark for future generations to have a more fulfilling life.

Children can have happier mums who are more conscious about themselves, women can feel more empowered either they are mothers or not and men can experience better intimate relationships with women who are not victims any more, but empowered beings who are a joy to live with.