Childless woman – does that make me a failure ?

Summer: the symbol of motherhood

Since we are in Summer I thought to talk about a subject that for women can be very sensitive and painful. Being a Childless woman

Summer corresponds to the ovulatory phase in a woman's cycle which is when a woman can conceive. Here I am going to share my insights about being a mother or being a childless woman.

Since an early age I thought that one day I would get married and have children; to be precise I wanted two and adopt a third one. I had already decided the names of those two of mine that would be a boy and a girl. I thought that I would be a good mum and possibly wouldn't do all those things that I couldn't stand and that my mother did. Of course I would know better and would do a better job and would have the perfect family and …

Plans, plans, plans

The other idea I had was that I would marry a foreigner and would live abroad, because I wanted my children to learn more than one language effortlessly without having to study them, as I did. I had it all planned and was looking forward to my bright future. At the time it never crossed my mind that these thoughts of mine might be the result of some conscious or unconscious conditioning from my family upbringing, society, schooling or media. I just thought that these were my plans.

Life beyond planning

They say that life is what happens when you are making plans and I think that it is utterly true and my life can certainly testify to that. I managed to travel the world and eventually live abroad, I even got married to a foreigner, a British man, but I certainly didn't succeed in having children with him or a happy marriage, so I had to face divorce and start again.

Well, I like new beginnings so that wasn’t a challenge for me, but to digest the emotional turmoil that all this caused was definitely not easy! Years flew by and before I knew it I found myself in the so called ‘middle age’ and my perspectives and plans changed; the idea of having children was not so appealing any more.

I started looking at life a little closer and ask myself questions like “What am I here to do?”, “Is there more to life than this?”, “I want more, but what exactly?” and others, but still along those lines.
Having lived in a different country has broadened my horizons and views about life and happiness. Having had more than one relationship also gave me a chance to stretch myself beyond my little ‘garden’ and look further afield.

I came to realise that we are all conditioned by so many things in life that actually to know who we are is not that easy, in fact it can be quite tricky.

Coming back to myself

Nevertheless I kept asking myself who I am and that helped me to eventually have a ‘eureka’ moment when I realised that my purpose is to educate women about their body and menstrual cycle to make it their best friend. It didn’t happen overnight though, it was the result of attending a workshop about menstruation and then allowing all the information to sink in and being open to what was there for me to be discovered.
Understanding more about my body and menstruation really helped me to put things into perspective and understand why I was feeling in certain ways at certain times of the month.

I embarked on my journey of self-discovery and menstrual awareness and that has changed me totally.
I started feeling different and empowered, rather than a victim of my body and nature. My life became an adventure that wasn’t simply an external and geographical journey, but a deeper and intimate voyage into myself.

It is actually down to me to decide what I want to bring into my life and I can co-create my life with the bigger forces out there for which we all have different names. I call them Nature or the Universe. The most important thing of all was realising that for a woman having children is optional, but giving birth to herself is a must !

Women’s purpose

As women we need to understand what our vocation is and what is important to us, otherwise we will never feel happy and fulfilled. Having children must be a wonderful experience, very fulfilling and all encompassing, but it is paramount to remember that we are born first as women with a purpose, not mothers!

If we don’t fulfil this duty towards ourselves first, being a mother will be a surrogate and a substitute for our self-actualisation and we will realise sooner or later that we are missing something.

Motherhood is one of the most important duty/vocation in a woman’s life, but if we don’t realise that we exist first as women, we won’t be able to transmit our legacy to our children or to the next generation at large.

When I understood this, I felt very different and the question of “I am not a mother, am I failure?” disappeared from my world and I achieved piece of mind.

I now know that by fulfilling my life purpose as a female cycle consultant and by helping women to feel empowered by their female cycle, I can leave my mark for future generations to have a more fulfilling life.

Children can have happier mums who are more conscious about themselves, women can feel more empowered either they are mothers or not and men can experience better intimate relationships with women who are not victims any more, but empowered beings who are a joy to live with.

  • Written byGabriella Guglielminotti Trivel

    Gabriella Guglielminotti Trivel is an author, speaker, visionary and female cycle consultant who helps women gain confidence, authority and fulfillment in life by knowing better their body. She helps women to make their female cycle their best friend, couples improve their relationship, find a more satisfying way to communicate and have better intimacy. Gabriella's website for further information; FlyingInspiration



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